Expectation

I would like to believe that I am somehow better than last year in term of having greater endurance after completed all those marathons. I can tough through anything. Anyhow these last few weeks after my marathon (wow almost a month now), I am feeling very lethargic and it brought me down a notch. I would like to think that I am just unmotivated or even lazy. And I would like to blame my body. I don’t know. Probably both. I made a lot of excuses on not running but probably my body isn’t ready yet to run.

I read a lot of blogs of other people putting in their time whether to do just a mile or two and this made me happy because I can relate to them and I really really want to be out there running too. I read some other blogs where people due to injury had to stay put. I can relate to that too because I really do want to go out and run but didn’t. Mine though doesn’t seem to be a physical limitation. I don’t know why…that when it comes the time to put on my shoes, I shrink away.  Yes, people were saying, I need to resolve to have a set training schedule. I can’t and shouldn’t run on a whim. 

Last few weeks made me feel very mortal! For me it is a very messy process to get myself ready for a race.  There will be probably many entries like this one. 

I started my blog last fall at a high point in my training where I just went out and ran and did all those races in a short time and reached my highest accomplishment in my brief running history. Now it is the beginning of the whole training season and you will see struggling, even at a baby step in putting in hours on my training runs. A guy who can run 26 miles but can’t do one measly mile. Hopefully, you will get to see me again at my high point by end of the year. Fingers crossed.

I am looking deep inside me for motivation to overcome the mundane of running. It is one thing to do a big race and feel extremely gratifying (and heavenly) but another thing to do the small and short runs. I like short runs too, but somehow not able to will myself to do it.

Day 59 end

2 thoughts on “Expectation

  1. I think it’s not unreasonable to not feel like running when your last marathon was only a month ago! You probably do need to rest and regroup before you start back to a hectic schedule of running. You don’t want to stress yourself out too much – it’s supposed to be enjoyable!

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